Hello Will (or your lovely and awesome real name Orville) Forte,
I am a basically invisible woman named Nicole Adams, I come from a suburb of Milwaukee, WI. Not from a rich family, not a poor family, not a non-dysfunctional family either. Just a normal middle class family from a suburb of Milwaukee.
I don’t want to lie, but currently. I am a bit intoxicated, but it seems like I need it (currently) to tell people how I feel. But this isn’t normally how I am. I tend to be that super quiet person in class. I suppose people could describe me as extremely, anti-social, but I would describe myself as an introvert. It’s not that I hate people, I just can’t always connect with people like most others. But I would greatly enjoy, to get over all the shitastic things that have happened in my life, and find someone amazing.
I wouldn’t say I am creepy, or anything like that. But some of my family would think its strange writing an open letter to someone who is 19 years older than I am. But, I also really don’t care what they think. When they looked down on me for being a graphic design student, I didn’t care, it’s something I love and something I am good at. Honestly I can’t deny that I am not strange, but I would rather be me, than be some sheep that just wants to follow what is popular, and what the social norm describes as normal. I am against that, as a pansexual, I am not the social norm, I am not a sheep, walking blindly into the slaughter.
I have been told on multiple occasions that I should be a stand up comic, unfortunately, I also have extreme fear of public speaking, which is what I am working on changing. Every Wednesday, I go to a basically unknown bar, on the border between to cities in (almost) the middle of nowhere Wisconsin, in the form of karaoke. Because why not get over the thing that I suck at the most. I believe I am a funny individual, but who thinks that they aren’t. Well I have to say, when you are 25, and feel completely alone, but you find yourself hilarious, means you have some sort of support within your self.
I’m not sure why I am witting this, and honestly I’m not quite sure of my current feelings, but you seem like an amazing person. I am not a crazy fan who has seen everything you have done. I am not someone who would stalk you (mostly because of the distance, I’m just kidding I hear stalking takes time, and I spend way too much time at school or at work). I work at a popular fabric and craft store, and when I am not there, I am attending a Technical School, trying to finally get my Associates degree. And when I’m not doing either of those things, or watching Netflix, I am creating mixed media pieces of [at least in my perspective] awesome musicians from the past.
Quite frankly right now. I don’t know if this makes any sense at all, but I sometimes feel that I have amazing feels for you. I am not trying to sound creepy, but I need the feels to get me trough life. Some where between my family not feeling that my major is anywhere near at par with my cousins or even my sister, and my grandmother [who I willingly moved in with to help her after her hip surgeries] who thinks that if you tell people that negative things about them, that they will change them. my adult life hasn’t exactly been amazing. Mostly because if you don’t have a degree where you get to show off how much stuff you learned in college, your degree might as well, have been handed to you by a group of children.
Will, you seem like a person that would help bring the feels back into my heart. Which it seems like I need at this point in my life. I hope that will be on your screen at some point in life. I, intend to post this on my website, which is not listed anywhere on my tumblr (where this has originally been posted). I also intend to link it to my twitter, which as well is not listed anywhere on my tumblr. If you find this, and you want to find some way to contact me, I am all over the internet.
Thank you for reading this, or maybe if you tldr’d, but caught some sort of feels or something good for you, maybe I have connected with someone in the world, who hasn’t treated me like a piece of shit, which would be wonderful.