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So Monday the first of February was my 21st birthday. What did i do. get fucking wasted. And I mean fucking wasted, I had to go to the hospital. Lesson I learned, dont go to the bar already drunk. One would say that its a given, but since I learn from my mistakes; or try to at least, no. When was the last time I posted on this thing; damn 2 months ago.

Lets see whats new in the world of Nicole. Well um. Yeah. I’m alive. I hope, unless this would be very awkward. I made a new playlist today. Its really bare and weird compared to all the others. So what do I happen to be listening to since the damn widgety thing on the side decides to error every time. Owl City (it gets stuck in my head so I’ll listen to it til it officially annoys me to death), Say Anything (You have to love music about girlfriends, sex, drinking and smoking (allegedly smoking, but im pretty sure from his song Max Bemis is a stoner)), Angels & Airwaves (I love anything Blink 182 related, Enema of the State was the first rock cd i bought), Paramore (duh Hailey is fucking awesome), Anberlin (No one is comparable to them!), Imogen Heap, Ke$ha (Tik Tok is fucking rad), and Garfunkel & Oates (thats where I got the title for this post, they are fucking hilarious, kinda like the female version of Lonely Island? I think so!).

I like everyone else and their mom created a formspring account. You can find me at: s34rchnd3str0y. Ask me questions I shall attempt to answer them hopefully.

Here are some pics of me on my birthday!

The bottom one was taken around midnight, and the top one around 10:30 ish at the bar. I dont look much older though.

I dont really know what else to put in here for now other than I’m lonely, and drinking coffee isnt the same when your not at Webbs. Oh and I want to play Thinkwise! again. Its fucking awesome.

Well….

Love,

Nicole

I’m not sure what I’m going to do with this space, no one wants it and I can always get something on blogspot or something. But I highly doubt that it’s as customizable as wordpress, and that I could also update it on my iPod.

So I can’t sleep, I’ve gotten like no sleep in 5 days. The doctor says I have some sort of viral thing, he never said exactly what though. So I’m calling it “Slice of Hell Pie Virus”. Why you ask. Well the first 2 days I could barely move. Then the 2nd day I broke out in hives, and my lip swelled up like a damn balloon. Then this cough started, it has yet to go away. It’s annoying cause NOTHING is helping. So I’ve decided in 2 days and it’s not gone/gets worse, I’m calling the doctor. Oh I also need to take oatmeal baths cuz idk if I’m going to break out again, but it is helping my eczemia. A bit, it still itches like fuck though!

Ok this spell check on my iPod is annoying. How can you get “rich” out of “fuck”. Seriously. I think it would be nice if they came out with “Punctuation Check”. Cause I can spell, oh I can spell. I can’t punctuate though.

So I’ve had a very drama free last month and a half. With friends I mean. Family not so much. My dad is such a dick. I get it he wants me to move out, but your my father you don’t have to be a dick about it. And you don’t want your daughter to continue having terrible panic attacks. And my grandma, omg my grandma who says I’m cold cuz I don’t cry when we visit my mother at Huber. I’m not cold. She don’t just get the fact that I don’t cry over tiny shut, unless it has to do with panic attacks when I’m very sick, where I just want to see Taylor. I know there are more important/involuntary things to cry about. Believe it or not those two things are related, well atleast in my brain.

So on an official note. I’m not having kids. Mainly cuz of all my emotional problems that stem from middle school & high school. And plus all that shit is hereditary, my grandma has it too. Oh and I’m genetically pre-disposed to cancer. So yeah too many things. And now I have a fight to go along with it compared to “I don’t want kids, I hate kids”.

So I have to get some sleep, I gotta be up in6 hours to go shopping with my grandma. And I WANT to go to sleep. Who knows. Well good night all.

xoxo.
Nicole

for all of you that dont know me, im anti-armed forces, war, and violence. you may call me a hippie i dont care. judge me all you want i also dont care. but when im called a selfish bitch for stating my opinion youve offically pissed me off and i will find you and hurt you. you wont know when, you wont know how, just watch out you fuckers. also for those who dont know i dont particularily enjoy where i live. i want to move somewhere far and pretty.

this leads me to things that piss me off (its my fucking blog if you dont want to read what i bitch about you better leave, cuz ill probably offend you.):

• my boyfriends ex
• people who wont shut the fuck up on their phones when im trying to help them
• people who feel that they must show off how much money they have
• teenage girls
• when people tell me i shouldnt do something, im 20 i feel i can decide if its a good idea or not
• stupid people
• the army, the navy, and what ever else it is cuz i dont care
• people who tell me that they are fighting for my freedom in iraq, i thought i already had freedom… asses
• people who refuse to let me express my opinion, cuz its wrong
• my father
• people who feel they must yell at me like im a child
• people who try to give me money for m “my child college fund” cuz they think im pregnant., i should then get to ask them if they are retarded
• people who yell at me cuz they are offended
• kanye west
• lady gaga (show me some real fucking proof. and stop dressing like a drag queen if you arent one cuz its fucking stupid)
• people who dont understand counter-cultures
• people who treat me like im stupid
• ed hardy
• parents who want me to lie to their kids
• parents who dont watch their kids
• you and your $400 coach/dooney & burke purse that you will have for a year and then feel you have to get a new one, even though your other one is in mint condition
• britney spears and her fans that think she is still the shit….
• people who think katy perry can sing (alert alert its all digital)
• metalocolypse its retarded and i dont care if i spelled it wrong
• teenie-boppers
• using leggings as pants, they arent they are supposed to be layered, go watch a good 80’s movie and find out
• fashion trends
• art trends
• trends in general
• scene kids who believe they are individuals
• people who dont see the beauty in things
• shows about having a shit ton of kids (like jon and kate plus eight)
• shows about brides
• shows about seeing you give birth…..
• mtv
• 16 & pregnant, its nice to know you’ve fucked up but i dont need a damn show about it
• celebrity dating shows, half of them are famous for being on another dating shows (ps all the girls are whores, so the first challenge should be getting them tested)
• kim kardashian and her twit sisters
• girls who wear “bump-its”, apparently they arent aware that it looks like they have a growth on their heads…..
• people who tell me ridiculous stories

well theres what i have to say.

xoxo

Nicole

My Top 5 Favorite Stoners

1. Michael Phelps

2. Doug Benson

3. Bob Marley

4. James Franco

5. Stephen King

My Top 5 Hottest Comedians

1. Daniel Tosh

2. Doug Benson

3. Margaret Cho

4. James D. Rolfe (aka Angry Video Game Nerd)

5. Sarah Silverman

My Top 5 Favorite Nerds

1. Bill Nye The Science Guy

2. Angry Video Game Nerd

3. Tina Fey

4. Ben Stein

5. Steve Jobs

opppppppsssssss….

i forgot about thissssss.

sorry.

ive been mega busy with work. and friends. and work.

lets see what has happened:

yeah thats about it….

im going to go..
real update is on the way
i promise.

Love,
Nicole